Mittwoch, 15. Juli 2009

Pride & Vanity

Feel weired.

Like something's wrong, just not right.

I feel lost.

Was surfing on studi. E. was online. guess I won't get an answer from him again. It's ages ago since I wrote him the last time. I looked at some pics of BRN last month and he was tagged on a picture with his Ex. Think he's still in to her. But I don't even know why it bothers me that much. It makes me angry and sad but I've got no right to feel that way.

I think it just annoys me that we never managed to be on one level. We don't think the same way and don't have the same kind of humour. That's why he never fell for me and that's the thing that bothers me. Not the fact that he stil likes his ex, that he doesn't like me that way. That's the point. My stupid pride and vanity.

Samstag, 11. Juli 2009

It's over!

I'm so glad. It's all over! Finally! All the applications are done! Now there's no chance to apply anymore. Scary in a weired kind of way, but also relieving! Now there's no presure anymore that it lays in my hands. Now my future lies in the Uni hands. No responsibility.
Now I can do what I want!