Well, I was looking forward to get my macbook and I always had this stupid picture in my head that after getting it everything would change and I mean everything ! But of course it was naive and stupid and so predictable.
Well, there's still hope. I didn't move in the new flat yet, so there might be change after moving out of my parents house. I need change! Desperately!
The only thing that scares me is, that it all lays in Gods hands, not so much in mine and I just don't know what to do. I mean, I'm just like trapped in old behaviour pattern and that's so tirering! I just have no idea what to do to change it all. I just don't know.